Today has been really hard. Not for any real huge reasons in particular, just mainly lack of sleep. I have two super awesome sleepers and two that seem to NEVER sleep. I'm not even kidding. I'm no expert, but I'm no new mama either and I can't for the life of me figure it out. I do know one thing though: one size does not fit all and there is no ONE THING that works for every kid (or person). We all come with such distinct personalities and traits - and half of my kiddos came with a fierce non-sleeping trait. I blame their dad. ;-)
So in-between me just trying to keep it together and battling a crazy sleep hangover (that's what I call the horrible headache and all-over barfy feeling that consumes your body when you get WAY too little sleep), I see moments like these - my girls giggling through the masses of pictures I'm trying to sort through (part of the KonMari Method - blog post with details coming soon).
Do you ever go to bed feeling like a failure? Like you tried your absolute best and still came up short? Welp, those were my exact feelings when my head hit the pillow last night. Through probably thousands of "learning experiences" as I like to call them, I've learned that the best thing we can do in those moments is to pray for GRACE for ourselves. I laid there and literally forced myself to think of things I did RIGHT throughout the day and it's amazing the difference I felt.
Our minds are powerful things. I think it's easy to let them run the show and feel that we have no control. But really - we do. And we'd be doing ourselves a favor to think a little more positive about that person who got up this morning and despite many failures and mistakes, is trying their best.
Remember when I said that we can learn so much from kids? Kids think they're HOT STUFF. Superhero material with no flaws. Imagine what we could accomplish if we had that kind of positive self thinking confidence. I bet it would've stopped me from crying when the third bowl of cereal spilled this morning. Well, maybe.
Here's to tomorrow. And thinking like a kid.
PS: that adorable little face up there is my baby sister (now a grown adult!) and one of the first pictures I ever took - film and all.